Been I while since I wrote but today I feelt like writing down everything.

Let's start with this, I got a new boyfriend and we have been together for 3 months now. We kind of jumped in to a relationship after just knowing each other 2 weeks. And because of that we step on each others nerves so there has been fighting that has been so unnecessary that it's crazy. Every friend I have except one says that we should split up. That it won't ever work, that we aren't a match. And I have thought about it, I have. But I meant what I told him every time he kissed me or hugged me, that I love him. I have that exact same feeling like I had with my ex. That feeling of happiness and safety whenever I were around him.

But now we've been "fighting" I don't even know if its worth calling a fight but for 2 days we have barely said anything, and today I only saw him for a few seconds and that's it. I told my friend that I would give him 2 days to stop ignoring me. I don't think I can be in a relationship with someone who ignores me. Now it's like a love/hate relationship. But I don't know where one start and one ends.

The thing is I've seen it all with him. I can see a future, years of holding his hand, meeting his family (with is big for me) and to just smile and laugh with him. Damn boys and making our lives a hell. Couldn't be happier for feeling love, but now I want to keep it!

I'm stuck on him. I can't stop thinking about him or what will happen if I lose him.
Damn, I really love the idiot!