How is it that I still can't get over my ex. It's so damn annoying! He is the main caracter in my dreams every night. And every time I see that one of his friends add him on Facebook I freek!
And today I just feel so lonely that I wish that I could just call him and begg him to get to my place and just be. Just hang out and continue where we left of..
But it still hurts after all he's done. Do I dare to try again?
I still don't have an awnser to that.

Well today has just been terrible..
You know when you press down your feeling so no one will see them?
Well I've been doing that for to long I think.
Cause today I've been feeling so sad and down.
It's like everything is catching up with me. And I hate it?
The worst part is that I have to deal with it.
So my only good comment for everything today is *sigh*.

Wish everything could be more like, "fuck it, fuck me, fuck everything. I'm fabulous!"

So my last text I talked about my ex that I was still in love with.
And of course I got back together with him.
And as expected we broke up again. Because he was an asshole.
He lied to me, cheated on me. But the worst was that he lied.
I asked him to promes me one thing (on a thursday) and he promised.
Then I find out the next day (friday) that he had broke his promised a
long time ago. He had done one of the worst things I know.
And he knew how mutch I hated when he lied to me, but he kept on.

So take my advis, never take back your ex when you really know he's
never gonna stop. He's never going to learn.
Now I keep sayin to my self,
I deserv better!

The clothes I use as pictures is stuff that you can by if you want to.

You just send me a text and I'll tell you where you can buy them.

Most of the ones I chose are from Gina Tricot :)

Have a nice life xx

Last night I went to a party at my best friends house. 

I really did'nt feel like it because I knew my ex would be there cuz they are friends.

So I dressed up my best in the way I knew he thought was hot so I could

show him that I'm fine without him.

But what happenss..

I get way to drunk and he comes to help me.

One way or another it ends up with him kissing me.

And I freak out! I knew I've tryed my best to forget him but I just cant.

So he breaks up with his girl and tells me that he wants me back,

and that he still loves me.

And I cant help my self.

He's my first love and I guess I need him for a little while longer.

At least untill I can feel that I'm sure of what I'm doing and he

can become my best friend again.

Cuz I do love him I do. Now I just have to make this work.

For a little while longer. Just a little while.

Since I've for a long time been wanting to shine. I've finally realised that for me to be seen I have

to make my best to shine as bright as I can.

So neon clothes is my first attempt so shine.

Ï've allways been in the background and I like it, I do but

I need to be seen to grow up.

To shine and to show everyone that this is me.

I am who I am, and I am not going to change.

So if you are known to being in the back,

do like me and SHINE!

Brighter then ever before.

I have realise that love and life are the same.

Love can be awnserd whit hate and sweetness.

But when you are a teenager love just sucks.

The ones who say that they are in love and coulde'nt

be happyerare lieing.

You can't fall in love as a teenager in real life.

That just exist in movies.

Just face that fact, that it's all a lie.

Ether the guy/girl just want to have sex with you

or when they have sex they want to try someone els.

I've been smart enough to face that befor making

a misstake. I know what I want. And I will go after it.

But first I want to grow up. I wont be all messed up

befor I even turn 18. I want to do something

meaningfull and have fun with my life befor

I look for the perfekt guy.

That does'nt even exist.

There is no such thing as perfekt. There's just

happiness and understaning.

Be smart and face it!

 Future raises uneasy feelings.

 Makes me wander around in a while,

 that does not even exist.

 When my soul gets lost too.

 Becomes the past as a security.

 Something you can hold on against the wind.

 But that contrast can be an obstacle

 is doing well.

 I'm not going to my right in any of these

 time round. And forget that it actually

 is a third.

 The present.

I think it's hard to love people in general.

 Not because they do not deserve to be loved;

 but just because my heart is so small.

 There's like only the ones I know.

 But if it's so hard to love the stranger

 people, why is it so easy to dislike

 about them?

 Does that mean that my hatred is greater than my heart?

 Such, I really can not be!